finally waking up

Hello love,

well... It all begins with this.... 

"The birds brought seed and flowers and bits of brightly colored string and placed them in her hair while she slept so that she would remember the wild joy of spring when she finally awoke."

On that day, in mid September, I laid down in my bed and like Snow White I closed my eyes and drifted off into a deep sleep. Days, weeks, months, passed by and although I kept moving, kept breathing, kept being, this huge part of me slept life away. It was just easier, to numbly live throughout my days, it kept my broken heart safe from the harmful outside world. But regardless of my efforts it still hits in the midst of things like reading a book, listening to a song, watching a movie, or even in the kindness of a stranger... and in that moment the gravity of the pain slowly emerges from that once dull, unnoticeable twinge to a wave of evident striking pain that over takes me to my very core. 

October... November... December... January... February... March... 

each month passed by yet somewhere in-between the beginning and the end, life kept on moving and while I slept birds brought seed and flowers and bits of brightly colored string and placed them in my hair.

These were not real yet they were simple reminders that came in the version of people, places, and things that God set in my life so that when I finally opened my eyes.. I would remember that His love and His joy is consistent it will never fade.

And now that i have finally woken up i can remember and rest in the joys i found during these past few months.... 

So here are all my pieces of brightly colored string.....

-Beauty. the kind that comes from being comfortable being exactly who you are and who you want to be

- Art Walk in Miami. actually just Miami in general.. it was a lovely city and the atmosphere was amazing! I hope to one day live in a town where i can ride my bike wherever i want to go and look at tons of art exhibits once a month.

-Sunrises! there are really no exact words to describe them, alone or shared they are breathtaking and if ever an opportunity arises I will never miss another sunrise again.

 -Friends. Real friends show up, through the tears, car wrecks, broken hearts, broken families, no matter how nasty it gets the real ones WILL show up and be there to pull you through when you feel like you can't go on any more.

-Spontaneous trips! always a story in the making.... For the rest of my life I will always get to remember the crazy trip i took to DC for the inauguration... the people I meet, the Obama brunches, and Barakwurst, the time capsule, museums, the buttons, flags, sweatshirts, hats, the millions of people all in one place for one united reason.  AMAZING! BEAUTIFUL! definitely a memory i will never ever forget.

-Jumping on Trampolines! If you haven't done it recently i strongly suggest it. There is just something so much fun about jumping like that.. it transports you right back to childhood.

-Forgiving. it's one of the hardest lessons I've learned lately but it's the most freeing thing i've ever felt. I'm so happy i don't carry the weight of that bitterness on my shoulders anymore.

-Good Conversations. You know the ones where you actually look at each other in the eyes and care about what the other has to say. I really believe you can learn so much just by really listening.

-Unplanned Adventures, just getting in the car and going. I don't want to ever wonder where the car could have taken us. I've made too many amazing memories on roads like those. In barns, parks, houses, forests, there is always an adventure to be found and a moment to enjoy.

-Moments. I am a hard core believer in moments, the ones where for just a second time stops and you think wow that was awesome. (ex. the moment the sun set tonight while we were at the bar in the sun sphere... just watching the last little sliver of light fade down into night was a gorgeous end to another spring day

-storypeople.com . check it out! he gives me so much inspiration.... like this "this is a creature on fire with love but it's still scary since to most people this love only looks like one thing, instead of the whole world." - Creature on Fire

-Painting, drawing, sewing, henna.... I live to create! not to explain or to answer to anyone, to create my heart for the world to see.

Well there's that... until next time... may peace and love follow you.